feelin' ignored

hello love! long time no write in this page.well ya i miss it.ummm,honestly i donno what will i write.but tonite i just...i just feeling weird! haha it seems like me tears wanna fall down, because this fuckin' suck feeling. no, it's not bout the boy.but,it's about me self.....

ya,since i was in 'new place' i didn't feel better at all.new people,new situation. i hate it honestly. i'm too shy to started the convo.i'm too shy to say 'hai' with those new people.i don't want that people just think bout me as i'm 'the freakin girl'.

maybe u just don't get it what i talked about.but seriously i cannot showed my feelings with true word right now.oke,lemme show it with 'i hate to being a stranger with no one care about me'. they know my name,but never realize if i was there.

yes,i was jelly with 'her'. she's beauty inside and outside.everyone who see her will be like her just with saw her.no, i never hate that girl. but,maybe u know how pathetic you are,when you were sat or walked with her and everyone just called her name and say 'hai' to ur friend without they mention your name too. its sooooo hurt actually haha.but ya,i know who i am. i'm not beauty as her.i just nerdy freakin girl who was sit or talked all day long during the hell lessons with her.

ya,i miss all my old friends.... they can accept me as "who i am" not "who they are thinking about". i love this moments,when i feel comfort with my old place.i miss it when i feel no one person who ignored me. oh God,maybe this's a impossible hope.but i wanna they back.i wanna all the memories are back.i don't want all those memories just roll in my mind like a film.i want i can be an actress in that film with all my old friends...